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Orange marmalade

하고픈일도 없는데
nothing i want to do
되고픈것도 없는데
nothing i want to be
모두들 뭔가 말해보라해
everyone tells me to say something

별다른 욕심도없이
without any greed
남다른 포부도없이
without any extraordinary ambition
이대로이면 안되는걸까
can't it be this way

 
am 
이상한걸까
i a little strange?
어딘가 조금
somewhere little 
삐뚤어져버린
deformed 
머리에는
mind
매일매일 다른 생각만 가득히
filled with different thoughts

am 
괜찮은걸까
i okay
지금 이대로
as of right now
어른이되버린 다음에는
after i become adult
점점 더 사람들과 달라지겠지
more and more i will be different from everyone
모든사람이 나와같다면
if everyone were like me
아무갈등도
no conflict
미움도 없이
without hatred
참좋을텐데 
it would be so nice
참좋을텐데
it would be so nice


am
이상한걸까
i a little strange
어딘가조금
somewhere
삐둘어져버린 
deformed
머리에는 매일 매일 다른 생각만 가득히
head different thoughts everyday

 
am 
괜찮은걸까
i okay
지금이대로
as of right now
어른이 되버린 다음에는
i become adult
아니 난 자라지 않을것만 같아
no i don't think i will grow

so these are words from dual kim, 
a 20 year old who committed suicide 
3 years ago 
and today is her birthday. 

Weird how her blog is still around 
even after her death, 
its been three years now. 
I wonder if I were to die, 
how long more 
will my words stay around?